SO I FINISHED THIS

( how do i cut things omg )

uuhh it's been kind of a weird week!

a few days ago i had my first panic attack in like a month? so my mom just decided yeah no stop with the new anti-depressant because i'm obviously not ready, and go back to my old one. my doctor agreed because i nosedived pretty fast since i'd only been taking it a few days. my mom wouldn't be comfortable switching me again until after about 6 - 8 months.

i also went to the gynecologist yesterday to see about my continuous heavy bleeding and i was REALLY disappointed that i was just told, again, to push through it

and i even have to have a "real" period now which sucks ugh. since the bleeding isn't really a full blown period it's mostly just my body trying to figure out what the fuck to do with estrogen. but actually taking the 7 days of the placebo will make me suffer an actual legitimate period and holy shit i'm not ready for that

though my mom let me go in public wearing a skirt while having really hairy legs so that was cool

oh i'm also taking 1000 mg of metformin now and i haven't had any bad side effects yet? i'm so happy that it's not killing me ;w; i don't know yet if i'm going to be able to handle the 2000 mg which is the dosage that they want me yet, but that's still like, a month away. so we'll see i guess?

was the entirety of this post about medication fucking hell

uuggh
help
i'm already suffering through withdrawal
and i up my dosage of metformin on sunday
and i'm positive the anti-biotics aren't doing dick so i'm getting dehydrated for no raisin
i'm also still bleeding

i could fucking complain about my medication all damn day

but i started working on this again



so that's fun

and holy shit the random icon button is amazing i forgot how much i loved icons so much you guys SO MUCH